OMG ladies I am so so sorry for my late BA/BS!! So here comes my essay... Finally, after all these months of longing and worrying I am able to announce the birth of my little princess Sophia Sarah Odgers, born on 12th April at 1.19pm weighing in at a chunky 8.9lb after being born 41+6.
I went in on Monday to be induced, and was having some weird cramps but they weren't painful but they eventually progressed (thankfully) to full blown contractions within a few hours of being there and just before the induction was due to start. I didn't have any build up, they were full on WOOSH! Well actually they were bareable to start with and i found myself feeling rather smug thinking 'what a breeze' lol! Well within just an hour or so they knocked me off my feet by about 1pm and I was begging for an epidural which I eventually got at 6pm. Labour progressed relatively well from then although her heart beat was high and they were worried about that. I think they saw something they didn't like and decided to break my waters and tell me to push by 12:45. On a few pushes I was then rushed to theatre, complete blur. Crying and blacking out, worrying I was losing her. Didn't really know what was going on. She was delivered in the theatre with forceps. And she cried straight away! I would like to say that I felt an overwhelming feeling but to be honest I was so out of it from the medication I couldn't feel anything, I couldn't see straight or talk or anything! I just knew she was ok.
I know it sounds silly but I haven't had that feeling of over whelming love that everyone talks about and I think that's because I've always had this love for her. Of course now the love is just more precious that she is sitting in my arms and I'm literally staring at her in ore wondering how the hell something so beautiful came out of ME!! She is amazing, perfect in absolutely every way.
So yesterday was great, she fed well, breast feeding was sore but it was ok! However I have had no sleep really since Monday, obvs Monday full day of labour, yesterday I was just on a high and last night my princess decided all she wanted to do was be on the boob and no amount of colostrum was satisfying her. I have struggled on today, she has been using me as a bit of a dummy I think and I literally fed for the best part of 14 hours straight with small short breaks... It was making me dread her waking up etc.
And so then another bit of bad news, we both have been in hospital being treated for an unknown infection (they're running tests) which is transmitted before birth, and they said that even though the score she's got is just above average and not really worrying we have to stay in until Sunday earliest so they can run more checks! So I've been soooo tearful today, worried about what it is that's in my ladies blood, and also hating that I am in hospital without hubby! It's very overwhelming! I've luckily been moved to my own room this evening so now feel more chilled and have made the decision to bottle feed and now my little lady is sleeping like a log. Hence the ability to update u all!
I am soooo totally and utterly smitten by my girl, I can't believe she's here, after everything we have been through! Thank u all sooooooo much for all of the support u have given me over the last 9 months! I honestly couldn't have done this with out u girls! U all mean the world to me! Good luck to all who are still expecting their rainbows, those who have their rainbows and those who are still trying to conceive! Miracles do happen and here's the proof:
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I went in on Monday to be induced, and was having some weird cramps but they weren't painful but they eventually progressed (thankfully) to full blown contractions within a few hours of being there and just before the induction was due to start. I didn't have any build up, they were full on WOOSH! Well actually they were bareable to start with and i found myself feeling rather smug thinking 'what a breeze' lol! Well within just an hour or so they knocked me off my feet by about 1pm and I was begging for an epidural which I eventually got at 6pm. Labour progressed relatively well from then although her heart beat was high and they were worried about that. I think they saw something they didn't like and decided to break my waters and tell me to push by 12:45. On a few pushes I was then rushed to theatre, complete blur. Crying and blacking out, worrying I was losing her. Didn't really know what was going on. She was delivered in the theatre with forceps. And she cried straight away! I would like to say that I felt an overwhelming feeling but to be honest I was so out of it from the medication I couldn't feel anything, I couldn't see straight or talk or anything! I just knew she was ok.
I know it sounds silly but I haven't had that feeling of over whelming love that everyone talks about and I think that's because I've always had this love for her. Of course now the love is just more precious that she is sitting in my arms and I'm literally staring at her in ore wondering how the hell something so beautiful came out of ME!! She is amazing, perfect in absolutely every way.
So yesterday was great, she fed well, breast feeding was sore but it was ok! However I have had no sleep really since Monday, obvs Monday full day of labour, yesterday I was just on a high and last night my princess decided all she wanted to do was be on the boob and no amount of colostrum was satisfying her. I have struggled on today, she has been using me as a bit of a dummy I think and I literally fed for the best part of 14 hours straight with small short breaks... It was making me dread her waking up etc.
And so then another bit of bad news, we both have been in hospital being treated for an unknown infection (they're running tests) which is transmitted before birth, and they said that even though the score she's got is just above average and not really worrying we have to stay in until Sunday earliest so they can run more checks! So I've been soooo tearful today, worried about what it is that's in my ladies blood, and also hating that I am in hospital without hubby! It's very overwhelming! I've luckily been moved to my own room this evening so now feel more chilled and have made the decision to bottle feed and now my little lady is sleeping like a log. Hence the ability to update u all!
I am soooo totally and utterly smitten by my girl, I can't believe she's here, after everything we have been through! Thank u all sooooooo much for all of the support u have given me over the last 9 months! I honestly couldn't have done this with out u girls! U all mean the world to me! Good luck to all who are still expecting their rainbows, those who have their rainbows and those who are still trying to conceive! Miracles do happen and here's the proof:
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