I`m trying to organise my work, so that if I have to go off sick in a couple of weeks (bad news scan) everything would go as well as possible if others have to pick up my work. But this week it has been crazy, loads of complex cases, no one knows anything about this pg at work, and there is a load of people on leave, but I don`t want to be taking on new cases and letting people down, but can`t say anything either. Had a cry to my dad on the phone (but needed to say it out loud to someone as was worried I would cry at work). Anyway got home had a misunderstanding with oh and cried, he says I should tell my friend at work but I feel so guilty at then telling her bad news again, but it just feels really tough today. Sorry for miserable rant but it really feels isolating, don`t want to upset oh or anyone else, and I have a scan date and haven`t told anybody when it is as will add to the pressure of it, oh will just worry so will prob say a day or two in advance, but don`t know if he will come, and i`ll be too stubborn to say if I need help... Tomorrow WILL be a better day. X
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