Hello ladies, I hope that you are all keeping well and that your rainbow journeys are all going smoothly.
I've only just found this group and I'm hoping that you will be able to provide me with some much needed support. I said goodbye my beautiful little boy last January at 17 weeks due to severe brain abnormalities. The rest of the year was extremely difficult as my husband and I grieved in very different ways, and the strain on our relationship was very hard. Also looking back now we rushed in to trying again, which added to the pressure.
After agreeing to take a break from trying and spending time concentrating on us, we felt ready to try again in October and fell that cycle. I am now 22 weeks, and am finding this pregnancy very difficult. I had bleeding at 7 and 11 weeks, but was told after scans that everything was normal. The 12 week scan ( which was where we got the first indication last time that something might be wrong) went well, as did a consultant appointment at 16 weeks and the anomaly scan. So I finally felt a bit more relaxed, and began to believe we would get to keep this baby.
Then yesterday at work after going to the loo I noticed some blood- it was fairly light but definitely enough to scare me. I went to the hospital where they found a heartbeat and performed a speculum examination which showed everything was normal, so I was just told it was "one of those things", and was told to rest and not worry (hahaha).
Today I have only had the tiniest spot of blood after wiping, and have felt little one wriggling, so the logic part of me thinks it's nothing to worry about. However, as I'm sure you are all aware, it's very difficult to listen to the logic. It's brought back all of the old fears of something going wrong, as I really don't know if I'm strong enough to go through it again. My husband and a friend who I've spoken to understand that I'm worried, but they seem to think that because the hospital said it was nothing to worry about that I should just forget it- if only it were that easy!!
Sorry for waffling on ladies, I guess I'm just hoping for some support ( or at least reassurance that I'm not the only crazy one out there)!
I've only just found this group and I'm hoping that you will be able to provide me with some much needed support. I said goodbye my beautiful little boy last January at 17 weeks due to severe brain abnormalities. The rest of the year was extremely difficult as my husband and I grieved in very different ways, and the strain on our relationship was very hard. Also looking back now we rushed in to trying again, which added to the pressure.
After agreeing to take a break from trying and spending time concentrating on us, we felt ready to try again in October and fell that cycle. I am now 22 weeks, and am finding this pregnancy very difficult. I had bleeding at 7 and 11 weeks, but was told after scans that everything was normal. The 12 week scan ( which was where we got the first indication last time that something might be wrong) went well, as did a consultant appointment at 16 weeks and the anomaly scan. So I finally felt a bit more relaxed, and began to believe we would get to keep this baby.
Then yesterday at work after going to the loo I noticed some blood- it was fairly light but definitely enough to scare me. I went to the hospital where they found a heartbeat and performed a speculum examination which showed everything was normal, so I was just told it was "one of those things", and was told to rest and not worry (hahaha).
Today I have only had the tiniest spot of blood after wiping, and have felt little one wriggling, so the logic part of me thinks it's nothing to worry about. However, as I'm sure you are all aware, it's very difficult to listen to the logic. It's brought back all of the old fears of something going wrong, as I really don't know if I'm strong enough to go through it again. My husband and a friend who I've spoken to understand that I'm worried, but they seem to think that because the hospital said it was nothing to worry about that I should just forget it- if only it were that easy!!
Sorry for waffling on ladies, I guess I'm just hoping for some support ( or at least reassurance that I'm not the only crazy one out there)!