Scan anxiety meltdown!

Hi ladies


Please help. I narrowly avoided a panic attack at work today just by casually browsing the internet. I decided to check the "how to find us" details for Evelina's Children's Hospital in my lunch break, and just looking at the floor plan again made me feel faint and my throat started constricting.


I am going back there on Friday morning for an early fetal cardiac scan (I'll be 14 weeks). I was referred there with my angel after concerns were raised at my 20 week scan, and they confirmed the worst.

I am just terrified about going back there. It's weird as I've had several scans at my TMFR hospital and where they initially spotted a problem, but this was where we found out the extent of her heart defects.


I am terrified it will be bad news again. I also realised today that I am already past the deadline for a medical termination and so I would need to labour again if the worst happened.

My OH thinks I shouldn't be so negative but I can't help it. I just don't know what I'll do if I have to go through all this again.


Sorry, sobbing over. Need to get a grip!


xx