Sorry to post a downer but Im so upset. Had consultant appt today at 38 plus 2 - idea being to discuss a plan and my options.... i was originally booked at Manchester, who were incredibly supportive and empathetic about my obstetric history - my son, who thank god is ok, nearly died during his labour (of 56 hours!!) and then of course Kate did die for other reasons altogether. So all in all, not ideal. Manchester, without any persuasion offered to attempt induction at 38 weeks plus and give that more than one attempt if it failed.
Im now in the south and being met by brick walls all over the place. I was warned that the hospital didnt like induction after previous section, but when i saw a registrar in November, he was very understanding and said that at term we could look at gentle induction - attempting breaking waters and drip (pessaries are a no no).
But saw Mr Up His Own Arse Consultant today to be told he doesnt support induction after section. That i should wait it out. That, though sad, Kate's loss is no bearing on this pregnancy or outcome. That if i go over full term, he may consider allowing them to break waters at PLUS F'ING 10 days, that the drip is unlikely, and an elective section would probably happen.
An elective section?????? It's not elective when it is forced upon you as your only option!!!! If baby is safe, i would like to avoid the section route. My son was sectioned and the recovery was hideous. Now he is nearly 4, i dont want to be so debilitated afterwards which i will be if sectioned.
I left the clinic in tears and feel no one is listening and that certainly they dont understand.
I am really scared now im at the end that something could go wrong. I am also in absolute agony. My pelvis is causing daily pain - doing normal things is becoming impossible. My left ribs are killing me - not sure if i cracked one with my horror cough a couple of weeks ago or whether it is muscle strain. Either way, agony. Baby is so big that her every move is making me "ow" out loud!!! Trying desperately not to moan but finding this really really tough. And very painful.
My sensible head is reminding me that i could yet have a spontaneous labour in which case all my induction (or lack of) worries are unnecessary. But my head needs to know that there is a plan b and that that plan is not a direct road to c section hell!!!!!! I understand the complications/risks of induction after having had a section before - its about the scar possibly rupturing. But if one PCT and consultant can allow it and says that, though it carries risks, it can be an option, it is really upsetting to know i have a consultant who works in such a blocking manner.
Has anyone else had a consultant who is so difficult or unsupportive?
I really am sorry to be so negative today, but dont know where else to turn :o(
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