I will forewarn you this may get a little moany and enter into feeling very sorry for myself.
Had a growth scan at 35+3 because I had dipped below 10th percentile by her tape, baby measured just above 10th percentile following curve the consultants scans had plotted.
But I got reffered for another scan anyway. That was today at 38+3, but when we got there sonographer said they dont do growth measurements after 38 wks as baby too big for the screen, too late to make decisions ect. So she checked fluid, organs, placenta position and cord.
Then had to wait to see mw. Then dr. But fetal medicine consultant (who i signed myself off at 31 wks die to healthy rainbow pg) spotted me and went through results and said umbilical cord reading suggested it was being over worked and concerns were it may fail.
Even though her team were all ready to leave, they loaded the monitor back up and prepared a room for me to have another scan with her. She said due to gestation there was some variability in reading ie baby big and strong to pull on cord andhave an effect on results.
So babies movements are important to keep an eye on to know if cord has become compromised and I will be having another doppler cord check on Saturday where my induction for 41 weeks will be arranged.
I am gutted that ive made it this far and now I have no control over something going wrong and its down to me to feel the signs. Im double gutted that I may end up being induced if she doesnt arrive naturally soon, because I didnt want my rainbow labour to be started in any way that reminded me of my angels labour being started. I know I said I didnt want a Chrismas baby but I take it all back. If she wants to arrive tomorrow she can just so I know she is out and safe where my body cant let her down.
Feeling somewhat a failure at being a mum and im still yet to have a baby of mine cry in my arms. I havent told my sisters as I dont want them worrying and im not telling my parents because they have been playing mind games this year and I need a clear head for this instead of them making out im losing it. I popped round to lend them our steamer at 9pm and when I said I wasnt staying as I was too tired my mum looked disappointed but didnt show and compassion and my dad didnt acknowledged me.
Luckily, oh is amazing and has 28days off work now to be by my side. Im looking forward to a family Christmas with both sides where there will be others around my parents to deflect any issues. I wish all you lovely ladies a very merry sober, pate-less chocolate filled Christmas!
Feel a little better for getting that out. Might sleep now.
Sarah xx
Had a growth scan at 35+3 because I had dipped below 10th percentile by her tape, baby measured just above 10th percentile following curve the consultants scans had plotted.
But I got reffered for another scan anyway. That was today at 38+3, but when we got there sonographer said they dont do growth measurements after 38 wks as baby too big for the screen, too late to make decisions ect. So she checked fluid, organs, placenta position and cord.
Then had to wait to see mw. Then dr. But fetal medicine consultant (who i signed myself off at 31 wks die to healthy rainbow pg) spotted me and went through results and said umbilical cord reading suggested it was being over worked and concerns were it may fail.
Even though her team were all ready to leave, they loaded the monitor back up and prepared a room for me to have another scan with her. She said due to gestation there was some variability in reading ie baby big and strong to pull on cord andhave an effect on results.
So babies movements are important to keep an eye on to know if cord has become compromised and I will be having another doppler cord check on Saturday where my induction for 41 weeks will be arranged.
I am gutted that ive made it this far and now I have no control over something going wrong and its down to me to feel the signs. Im double gutted that I may end up being induced if she doesnt arrive naturally soon, because I didnt want my rainbow labour to be started in any way that reminded me of my angels labour being started. I know I said I didnt want a Chrismas baby but I take it all back. If she wants to arrive tomorrow she can just so I know she is out and safe where my body cant let her down.
Feeling somewhat a failure at being a mum and im still yet to have a baby of mine cry in my arms. I havent told my sisters as I dont want them worrying and im not telling my parents because they have been playing mind games this year and I need a clear head for this instead of them making out im losing it. I popped round to lend them our steamer at 9pm and when I said I wasnt staying as I was too tired my mum looked disappointed but didnt show and compassion and my dad didnt acknowledged me.
Luckily, oh is amazing and has 28days off work now to be by my side. Im looking forward to a family Christmas with both sides where there will be others around my parents to deflect any issues. I wish all you lovely ladies a very merry sober, pate-less chocolate filled Christmas!
Feel a little better for getting that out. Might sleep now.
Sarah xx