I lost my little girl, Alice at 20 weeks last January.
I conceived my rainbow, Isobel last May when she was due.
I've since given birth to my beautiful girl in February and can't imagine life without her.
I'm really struggling with guilt though, moving on with another little girl - I feel like I've abandoned her and just replaced her. I chose not to see her and don't regret that decision (I couldn't face the image) and said goodbye in my own way but what if she sees this as a bad thing? I will always love her so much. I try and tell myself she was for my Grandma who died 20 years ago and had always wanted a little girl.
I find myself in tears so often now. I'm breastfeeding so even seeing the GP and going back on medication (I was on last year) isn't really an option.
Wasn't sure where to post but I needed to offload.
Thank you if you have read this xx
I conceived my rainbow, Isobel last May when she was due.
I've since given birth to my beautiful girl in February and can't imagine life without her.
I'm really struggling with guilt though, moving on with another little girl - I feel like I've abandoned her and just replaced her. I chose not to see her and don't regret that decision (I couldn't face the image) and said goodbye in my own way but what if she sees this as a bad thing? I will always love her so much. I try and tell myself she was for my Grandma who died 20 years ago and had always wanted a little girl.
I find myself in tears so often now. I'm breastfeeding so even seeing the GP and going back on medication (I was on last year) isn't really an option.
Wasn't sure where to post but I needed to offload.
Thank you if you have read this xx
