I'm sure some people will judge me when they see this but I also wonder if anyone else might be able to sympathise too.
I had a TFMR on 13 July last year at 21 weeks...a lovely baby girl. I'm now pregnant again and 21 weeks and although we aren't finding out the sex I'm 99% sure I saw that it was a boy on the scan (hard to miss!) and I felt such disappointment. I think I have always wanted a girl (and we came so close to it last year) and although we want 2 children (if we can) I am now worried I'll be so sad if I end up with 2 boys.
Don't get me wrong, I'll love them just as much and I just want a healthy baby but there is also such a horrible guilty feeling of disappointment too and I feel like we had our chance to have a girl...
I know once the baby is in my arms I'll be so happy but this feeling is just one I hate having as I want to be happy that all is looking good and healthy with this baby.
