So I've been all jolly and positive the past new weeks and telling people on here to not worry about things we don't know have even happened etc etc...
But at 7 weeks 3 days, my brain has basically switched myself to being pregnant at all. Morning sickness is increasing to actually upchucking instead of just nausea, the tiredness has really set in and I'm an absolute mad psycho around the home - so all the signs are there that all is progressing well... but I'm under the firm impression that something has happened in there and when I get my 8 week scan this friday coming that there won't be anything in there or what is in there is no longer alive.
I had a horrific nightmare where I was standing in my bathroom with blood gushing onto the floor and asking my husband if the lumpy stuff I'd caught in my hands might mean I'm losing the baby. It was just awful on so many levels and I woke up with everything firmly intact which was a huge relief.
My 6yr old daughter was deeply affected by our TFMR and longs for her little sister back and asks us repeatedly for a brother or sister. We aren't telling her until we get Harmony results back which will still be another 5 weeks away.
Worse thing was my instincts were correct with my angel, I just hope this is just a defense mechanisim stopping me from being happy about this pregnancy. I'm in complete denial about the whole thing. I can't wait until I've had the harmony, the 12 week scan, that they're all ok and I can start to breathe and be happy.... sorry for the moan...