Finding it hard to believe..

Hi there,


I've been having a really tough few weeks and I'm really struggling to be positive. I'm just hoping that I'm not alone in my fears and that they are just fears. I've always had an awful feeling that I won't be able to have a baby. I've had this fear for many years and then when I was told I likely have PCOS last year, the fear got even worse. Then to my shock, I got pregnant but again, I couldn't shake a horrible feeling. That ended in a TFMR for Down's syndrome and cystic hygroma/hydrops at 16 weeks. Now 3 months on and I just can't picture a healthy pregnancy/baby. I am so afraid that it won't happen and that these feelings are signs somehow. I'm trying so hard to be positive and tell myself that it's fear but I just can't stop worrying. I'm only 28 and even started panicking and convincing myself I was going to have an early menopause last week (there is some family history of it) but I got in such a state. I just can't picture my rainbow and it scares me. Is this normal? Just need a bit of advice, no one really understands and they tell me "of course you will have a baby" but I am struggling to believe it.


Feeling lost!


Thanks for reading my rant!


Much love xxx