I knew I was going to find this pregnancy harder than both my sons pregnancies because the naivety has been lost since losing our angel. However I didn't realise how hard.
After each milestone early scan, nipt results, 12 week scan,20 week can etc I felt relief for a few days at the most and after my 20 week scan I really thought I could relax but that hasn't happened.
I have an anterior placenta but have felt movements regularly for a few weeks. Mainly on an evening when I concentrate but they were there. However the past few days I felt hardly anything. My anxiety today has been through the roof. My poor dh is trying his best to keep me calm but I can tell he is worried about me. I'm pleased to say I have felt her again tonight so feel better but this anxiety is getting too much. I am worri g over absolutley everything. I do have a Doppler and can find her heartbeat all the time but this just doesn't ease my fear.
Has any of U lovely ladies any tips to help with this. I am thinking of calling my midwife to chat to her about it but not sure what she can do or what reaction I will get.
I don't think it is going to get better until I hold her in my arms but really don't think I can continue like this for the next 19 weeks. Im struggling at the min.
Thanks for reading and listening. I am hoping some of U have some success stories that the fear does finally start to go. I hope the rest of U are all doing ok with your beautiful rainbow pregnancies xx
After each milestone early scan, nipt results, 12 week scan,20 week can etc I felt relief for a few days at the most and after my 20 week scan I really thought I could relax but that hasn't happened.
I have an anterior placenta but have felt movements regularly for a few weeks. Mainly on an evening when I concentrate but they were there. However the past few days I felt hardly anything. My anxiety today has been through the roof. My poor dh is trying his best to keep me calm but I can tell he is worried about me. I'm pleased to say I have felt her again tonight so feel better but this anxiety is getting too much. I am worri g over absolutley everything. I do have a Doppler and can find her heartbeat all the time but this just doesn't ease my fear.
Has any of U lovely ladies any tips to help with this. I am thinking of calling my midwife to chat to her about it but not sure what she can do or what reaction I will get.
I don't think it is going to get better until I hold her in my arms but really don't think I can continue like this for the next 19 weeks. Im struggling at the min.
Thanks for reading and listening. I am hoping some of U have some success stories that the fear does finally start to go. I hope the rest of U are all doing ok with your beautiful rainbow pregnancies xx