Hello, so I can't believe I'm on this board and feel nervous writing it all down but not sure I can do this without some support from people who understand.
We sadly lost our baby boy at 29 weeks after a scan at 28 weeks showed he was incompatible with life away from me (hate the phrase they used) and we had to make a heartbreaking decision.
It's been a tough journey and we are a year and half down the line and I'm pregnant again. I'm petrified. We now know due to tests etc since losing our son that we are both carriers of a genetic condition so there is a 1 in 4 chance of it happening again. We have been offered the cvs test and mine will be 20th January. I feel like I've already written it off as bad news to protect myself but then have a glimmer of hope that it might actually be ok! Not sure how I will cope.
I've been reading your posts and relating to the constant worrying and how hard it is to actually let yourself enjoy being pregnant.
Also not sure if I can cope going in to work. I have terrible nausea and exhaustion which is making trying to not think about being pregnant really difficult. I also look pregnant and can't bare going back to work after Christmas holidays and people guessing etc and having to face talking about it. Tempted to get signed off but feel like a total wimp but I know my doctor will support me!
Sorry for the huge moan just feel so nervous and anxious about leading up to the cvs and beyond. Feels so unfair that we have to go through this after what we went through but at same time want and need to be strong as we are lucky they can test and know our gorgeous boy is watching over us.
Relying and trying to believe - what's meant to be will be xx
We sadly lost our baby boy at 29 weeks after a scan at 28 weeks showed he was incompatible with life away from me (hate the phrase they used) and we had to make a heartbreaking decision.
It's been a tough journey and we are a year and half down the line and I'm pregnant again. I'm petrified. We now know due to tests etc since losing our son that we are both carriers of a genetic condition so there is a 1 in 4 chance of it happening again. We have been offered the cvs test and mine will be 20th January. I feel like I've already written it off as bad news to protect myself but then have a glimmer of hope that it might actually be ok! Not sure how I will cope.
I've been reading your posts and relating to the constant worrying and how hard it is to actually let yourself enjoy being pregnant.
Also not sure if I can cope going in to work. I have terrible nausea and exhaustion which is making trying to not think about being pregnant really difficult. I also look pregnant and can't bare going back to work after Christmas holidays and people guessing etc and having to face talking about it. Tempted to get signed off but feel like a total wimp but I know my doctor will support me!
Sorry for the huge moan just feel so nervous and anxious about leading up to the cvs and beyond. Feels so unfair that we have to go through this after what we went through but at same time want and need to be strong as we are lucky they can test and know our gorgeous boy is watching over us.
Relying and trying to believe - what's meant to be will be xx