evening ladies, didnt really no where to write this.
Ive just been having a few out of the blue dad moment lately, they catch anytime anywhere! At home, work, shopping basically doesn't matter what I'm doing. I don't no if it's also pregnancy hormones playing a part aswell. But basically I keep having these moments remember every app etc on the lead up to having my angel. I tend to relive them in my mind and then just want to burst into tears. I also keep thinking this would be her first Christmas and about how hectic it would have been with a toddler and new born.
I still just don't feel like any of this is real, I had to terminate my baby girl then have her cremated and now all I have is a few photos and her ashes. And now I'm pregnant again and I'm dreading even having a mc or thinking if anything goes wrong, I don't no how I would cope if I had to go through it all again. I really think I would hav a mental breakdown. I no a few of you ladies have had to go through this and my heart truly goes out to you!
I'm sorry to rant but other ppl just don't get any of this. And I think ppl just assume I'm happy because I am pregnant again. Don't get me wrong I feel so blessed but I will never get over what I've been through and this huge loss in my life.
My mil has fetched s pink lantern round aswell, she didn't say anything about it I just saw it on the side. I thought it was lovely and I think we will fly it 2mora night. I can't believe we have to do these things, why is life so cruel
Ive just been having a few out of the blue dad moment lately, they catch anytime anywhere! At home, work, shopping basically doesn't matter what I'm doing. I don't no if it's also pregnancy hormones playing a part aswell. But basically I keep having these moments remember every app etc on the lead up to having my angel. I tend to relive them in my mind and then just want to burst into tears. I also keep thinking this would be her first Christmas and about how hectic it would have been with a toddler and new born.
I still just don't feel like any of this is real, I had to terminate my baby girl then have her cremated and now all I have is a few photos and her ashes. And now I'm pregnant again and I'm dreading even having a mc or thinking if anything goes wrong, I don't no how I would cope if I had to go through it all again. I really think I would hav a mental breakdown. I no a few of you ladies have had to go through this and my heart truly goes out to you!
I'm sorry to rant but other ppl just don't get any of this. And I think ppl just assume I'm happy because I am pregnant again. Don't get me wrong I feel so blessed but I will never get over what I've been through and this huge loss in my life.
My mil has fetched s pink lantern round aswell, she didn't say anything about it I just saw it on the side. I thought it was lovely and I think we will fly it 2mora night. I can't believe we have to do these things, why is life so cruel