Hi ladies,
With only 5 weeks to go til we meet our pink rainbow I can feel my anxiety creeping back again!I was doing really well all along getting things ready for her buying the clothes,stroller,car seat,Moses basket and basically trying to enjoy all of that side of things for a change but now for the past couple of days I get moments of panic,like will she be ok,will I be able to get her out safely,and I'm terrified of something going wrong at the end!It almost seems too good to be true that we might actually get our little rainbow and have a happy ending!im sorry if I seem negative or ungrateful in any way!i feel so incredibly lucky to be in this position but I just wish I was feeling full of happiness and excitement instead of feeling so worried!Its also a year now since we discovered our angel had so many problems and the memories of that aren't helping!Oh the roller coaster of emotions we go through carrying out rainbows!please tell me if I'm being ridiculous to feel this way if I am,have any of you that have already had your rainbows felt this sort of worry in the last month?
Kitty X
With only 5 weeks to go til we meet our pink rainbow I can feel my anxiety creeping back again!I was doing really well all along getting things ready for her buying the clothes,stroller,car seat,Moses basket and basically trying to enjoy all of that side of things for a change but now for the past couple of days I get moments of panic,like will she be ok,will I be able to get her out safely,and I'm terrified of something going wrong at the end!It almost seems too good to be true that we might actually get our little rainbow and have a happy ending!im sorry if I seem negative or ungrateful in any way!i feel so incredibly lucky to be in this position but I just wish I was feeling full of happiness and excitement instead of feeling so worried!Its also a year now since we discovered our angel had so many problems and the memories of that aren't helping!Oh the roller coaster of emotions we go through carrying out rainbows!please tell me if I'm being ridiculous to feel this way if I am,have any of you that have already had your rainbows felt this sort of worry in the last month?
Kitty X