It's been exactly a year since I had my distastrous 12 week scan that eventually led to my TFMR in December. I thought that once I got my bfp I would be able to relax and be happy but I am really struggling with everything. I still can't help but still feel anger and resentment towards pregnant women/women with babies. It's almost like part of me forgets I'm pregnant while the other part of feels like that will never be me.
I have convinced myself that I will never have my thb and that things will go wrong again at my next scan. I just keep feeling that I will have to go through a tfmr again and then have to see all these people who seem so ungrateful at what they have, so unaware at all the things that go wrong for others. I feel so down about this pregnancy and my DH keeps getting really upset with me saying that I'm acting like our baby is already dead and he feels like he can't enjoy me being pregnant. I've been trying to say positive things to make him feel better like "this time next year" and "next Christmas we'll have a little baby" but in my heart of hearts I don't believe it. Sorry if I'm being such a downer I just feel so sad and so alone at the moment. Does anyone else feel this way? How can I try and feel positive? 