I had my first MW apt today, and out of the blue it really upset me. She is lovely and is the one that was with us for the TFMR, but I hadn't realised quite how it was all going to bring it back to me.
She suggested that we go for Harmony testing this time, which although is completely sensible and what we had already discussed, I guess I'd been hoping for her to say that the chances of anything going wrong again were so low, it would not be recommended. She did say lightening doesn't strike twice, but actually we all know that it can and does.
I lost it completely on the way home which I wasn't expecting as I've been ok so far with being pregnant again, mostly.
I guess it hit home how terrified I am of the possibility of having to go through it all again.
She also said that the Fetal Meds dept weren't going to give me an early scan, although we both agreed that she would say I needed a dating scan so I can at least have a viability one soon.
Also knowing much more this time around that we aren't out of the woods until 20, am wishing I could keep it secret till then but know that I will be showing by 20 wks.
Sorry for the venting - feeling a bit low today, but I'll be ok.