Hi everyone,
I've been a lurker since my BFP two months ago and its been so lovely to read about everyone's rainbows. As well as reassure myself that the multitude of emotions I've experienced are normal!
We lost our first baby boy after the 12 week scan in January this year. Raised NT and fluid all round his little body lead to bleak prospects from the consultants we then spoke to. After dark days that I know only you will understand we made the unbearable decision. He had T21. I've only been able to process what happened by reading the posts on the different TFMR boards and whilst I'm so sad we have had to go through this, it has been a comfort to read about the brave ways everyone battles on.
Anyway, fast forward and here I am waiting to go for 12 week scan this morning. Very strange emotions this pregnancy from not allowing myself to really believe it, blind moments of panic/guilt/fear, and then oddly enough, moments of complete calmness which I never experienced in my last pregnancy (was convinced something was wrong all through).
I'm praying for a different outcome today and hope me and DH have some good news.
Apologies for the outpouring and I wish you all happy and healthy pregnancies with your rainbow x
I've been a lurker since my BFP two months ago and its been so lovely to read about everyone's rainbows. As well as reassure myself that the multitude of emotions I've experienced are normal!
We lost our first baby boy after the 12 week scan in January this year. Raised NT and fluid all round his little body lead to bleak prospects from the consultants we then spoke to. After dark days that I know only you will understand we made the unbearable decision. He had T21. I've only been able to process what happened by reading the posts on the different TFMR boards and whilst I'm so sad we have had to go through this, it has been a comfort to read about the brave ways everyone battles on.
Anyway, fast forward and here I am waiting to go for 12 week scan this morning. Very strange emotions this pregnancy from not allowing myself to really believe it, blind moments of panic/guilt/fear, and then oddly enough, moments of complete calmness which I never experienced in my last pregnancy (was convinced something was wrong all through).
I'm praying for a different outcome today and hope me and DH have some good news.
Apologies for the outpouring and I wish you all happy and healthy pregnancies with your rainbow x