Hello. I posted a while back at 34 and 36 weeks to say that growth scans had shown an increased amount of amniotic fluid (polyhydramnios) and a short femur. We were told that these things could be a sign of a syndrome of some sort, or it may just be that there is no real reason. A further scan at 38 weeks showed no real change. I've surprised myself by managing to be optimistic, and have been enjoying my maternity leave and looking forward to baby's arrival.
However, the past couple of days I've been feeling really upset. Baby is due on Friday and I find myself constantly fretting that something will go wrong in labour, or that our baby will be really poorly and won't be our take home baby. I keep thinking of the dark days (and weeks and months) following my tfmr, and how it put a huge strain on my marriage, and worry that I won't be able to cope if we do loose this baby too. I also worry that even if all is well, I won't be able to bond with my baby as I'll be constantly worried that there is something wrong. I'm hoping though that once I have my baby in my arms this will not be the case.
I'm anxious to meet my baby, but have a feeling that I'm going to go overdue, and as I'm a bit of a control freak this is also stressing me out! I'm fully aware that most of my worries are completely irrational, and for this reason I don't really want to talk to anybody "in real life" about it. Even writing it down now I feel a bit silly, but hopefully you ladies may be able to understand and reassure me that I'm not a complete loon!!
However, the past couple of days I've been feeling really upset. Baby is due on Friday and I find myself constantly fretting that something will go wrong in labour, or that our baby will be really poorly and won't be our take home baby. I keep thinking of the dark days (and weeks and months) following my tfmr, and how it put a huge strain on my marriage, and worry that I won't be able to cope if we do loose this baby too. I also worry that even if all is well, I won't be able to bond with my baby as I'll be constantly worried that there is something wrong. I'm hoping though that once I have my baby in my arms this will not be the case.
I'm anxious to meet my baby, but have a feeling that I'm going to go overdue, and as I'm a bit of a control freak this is also stressing me out! I'm fully aware that most of my worries are completely irrational, and for this reason I don't really want to talk to anybody "in real life" about it. Even writing it down now I feel a bit silly, but hopefully you ladies may be able to understand and reassure me that I'm not a complete loon!!