1 year ago today!!!

1 year ago today my whole world was turned upside down after my first scan with Fetal medicine for my angel Ava. We went into the scan after being told everything was perfect baby was just lying awkwardly & that's why we needed another scan. Appointment was at 1pm but we were called in early at 12:50pm & after a 45 minute scan where consultant was completely silent for the whole time we were taken into 'the room of doom' & told the "baby could have some serious bone problems or everything might be fine I really can't tell because of how they are lying, come back & ill re scan u in 2 weeks time".

Que the start of 2 weeks scouring the Internet for answers.

I Can't believe how quick this last year has gone I can still remember it like it was yesterday, remember exact dates & times. it still hurts like it was yesterday I thought it would be easier to deal with now that I'm 38+5 with my rainbow but I've been up all night in tears. Sorry for the down post ladies just having a really crappy day & I know I am very blessed to have fallen pregnant with my rainbow so quickly but all family & friends seem to be interested in is 'have u had him yet?! Any sign of him?' Even OH had to be reminded what today is. I don't want her to be forgotten by anyone, she is the first grandchild not rainbow but everyone seems to have forgot she even exists. Thank u for reading to me rabbit on just had to unload somewhere & I knew u ladies would understand xxx