Hi everyone! God, I am SO pleased to be here...
I'm very tentatively joining you after getting my BFP yesterday- I tested a couple of days early (I'm due AF tomorrow) as I had been feeling so dreadful for over a week that I thought I was either really ill or pregnant...lo and behold 'Pregnant 1-2' flashed up almost immediately!
Having had a cp two months before I conceived my angel, I feel like a complete idiot for testing early but I can't even begin to tell you how anxious I was becoming about whether we were pregnant or not this month. Now that I know I feel SO much better so I guess I just need to brave it out.
A bit more about me, I have a 21 month old DS and was so looking forward to giving him a sibling. Sadly it wasn't to be...I had my tfmr in January at 21 weeks after the baby was diagnosed with severe spina bifida and AC malformation. Our consultant was very good and left all the options open to us but was very blunt when we asked what the possibility of any quality of life for our baby would be. His answer was "almost none." The tfmr appeared to go very smoothly, I had a lovely room and the most amazing midwife team and there weren't any complications. However I continued to bleed (painlessly) for 3 months and depsite making repeated visits to the doctor and the hosptial was refused a scan so many times on the basis that I wasn't showing any signs of retained products and the placenta was reported as being complete. Instead I was handed antibiotics (without being tested for infection) and sent on my way. Eventually I managed to persuade a random GP to refer me for an ultrasound at the end of March which found there was a small piece of placenta remaining and then I was referred back to the hospital. I couldn't believe it when my apppointment came through- for the 17th of June??? So they were completely happy to leave me bleeding for another 10 weeks!!! Fortunately I passed the remaining piece naturally and the next month had a normal period so my body, which had let me down so badly, had finally done it's job.
And now it has done it's job again by giving me my rainbow in the first month that we'd been properly trying. I'm so aware of the bumps that could lie ahead in the road and I know that things could go wrong again for a whole host of reasons but I'm just not looking too far ahead right now. I'm going to make the most of every second of being pregnant with this baby and if all goes well i'm going to be the most pregnant woman you've ever seen! Maternity smocks, leggings, gherkins and ice cream, whatever- I look forward to being a cliche 
I'm sure this bravery will disappear sooner or later (probably sooner) but from stalking this board for a couple of months and from all the love and support I've had from the incredible ttc board, I know you ladies will be excellent cheerleaders!
Thank you for having me! x
P.S sorry for waffling, can you tell I'm trying to avoid doing any work???