So it's our 20 week scan tomorrow afternoon. I was scanned 3 weeks ago and everything that they could see looked fine so I'm not overly worried, but tomorrow is a detailed look at the heart, brain and spine. If everything looks ok we'll be signed off from fetal care into midwifery lead care. This makes me really nervous, I'm scared to be "normal", I like being wrapped in cotton wool, I feel safe with the fetal care team. Is that bonkers? All we want it to be normal, and now I might have the opportunity I'm scared!!
Also tomorrow is 1 year since I found out I was pregnant with Esmè. So full of expectation, joy and dreams and no idea of where I would be just 1 year later! I hate that the "one year since" anniversaries have started. I don't want to be more than a year away from my Esmè. I don't want to revisit all those dark emotions!!
Sorry to waffle. Xx
Also tomorrow is 1 year since I found out I was pregnant with Esmè. So full of expectation, joy and dreams and no idea of where I would be just 1 year later! I hate that the "one year since" anniversaries have started. I don't want to be more than a year away from my Esmè. I don't want to revisit all those dark emotions!!
Sorry to waffle. Xx