Hi ladies, i hope it's ok to post here, feel like i have nowhere to turn..
Happy news first, a BFP on Tuesday morning! :) We sadly farewelled our first baby, Jacob, in Dec13 at 20w - the worst thing we've ever had to do. This was our first month ttc. i had been keen to start straight away, OH was less enthusiastic, so our compromise was to 'try' once late in the month (after ovulation, or so i thought!). i still can't believe there's a rainbow on board and am tentatively ecstatic!!
OH, on the other hand is totally freaked out. Says he's not ready to be a dad (!). He freaked out when we first conceived Jacob and i watched a usually loving, cheerful, affectionate partner withdraw and turn into a sullen stranger for 3 months. But he did seem to recover and was looking forward to Jacob.. before all went pearshaped and ended in tmfr :( But in the hospital when i was really low, he told me i had to pull through so we could give Jacob a brother or sister....? so confused..
He says he hates himself for thinking this way. Can't see any positives. Doesn't think he'll make it through. When I suggest going to see someone he says he's not depressed, he'd be fine if i wasn't pregnant (ouch).
Has anyone had an OH react like this? I'm worried for him, worried for us. I still think he will be a great dad when the time comes, but at the moment i am so lonely - booking obs appointments and scans but not having anyone to share this joy with...
apologies for the mammouth post xx