I'm having a crisis of confidence. I started this pregnancy without any anxiety at all, I firmly believed little Nicky was a one-off, it almost certainly wouldnt happen again and I have to be honest, I never even considered miscarriage as anything other than a very uncommon tragic thing that was barely worth worrying about. I've never had one before, and it just wasn't something that was a great concern to me.
Now I've been spending too much bloody time on these boards, (Nov/December 2014 Birth Club) and every 30 min someone posts about bleeding and miscarriage, I am starting to panic. Seen at least three people announce they have MC.
Everyone seems to be in a permanent state of panic, either about roast beef, or about how hot their bath is, or about a 2 hour flight to Spain...
Tlak about panic being contagious, I wasn't at all worried, stressed or panicked until I started using these boards and now I am on the verge meltdown!
Why do people keep saying "Hope it stays sticky?" Why wouldnt it? That's like saying "I hope you dont get cancer" or "I hope you arent in a car crash today" ??!
Have I jinxed it by being complacent? Im going to go to my scan tomorrow morning and I'm having a panic they're going to tell me there's no heartbeat and then it'll be like a big fat 'serves you right' for not being anxious :'(